So, I took it upon myself to go through every single blog post I ever made to my blogs – one by one. It was a daunting task, and as of yesterday I finished.

Wow.

First of all, it gave me a little bit of perspective to where / when things occurred in the time line of…time. Even a while ago I had little concept of time beyond 4 minutes and 50 seconds (the time to microwave 2 hot pockets), but nowadays I find that even that is going, and the fact that I go to the right classes on the right days amazes me. But being able to place everything that happened into point in the past 3-4 years…it’s just a point of view I wasn’t expecting, and it’s kinda comforting to know when things happened, in addition to just knowing that they happened. A lot more happened then I remember on my own.

Also, I don’t think I’ve changed much. There was a point where you can tell I made a decision to be extremely selective of what I put into writing, but that’s not much of a change. It actually scares me to note that these mood swings / general crappy attitude I’ve had since I’ve come to college is actually something that’s always been there. I guess just being in a new situation brings it to light in a way it wasn’t being noticed before. I just like the fact that I actually figure out what’s causing it, but then I don’t do much about it. I liked my moody-ness to not sleeping, and then I just kept on not sleeping enough. interesting, stupid, and par for the course I suppose.

Aside from that, I think I’m just weird. And so that no one has to do that again, I made a list of all the posts I thought had some sort of relative or interesting content. Well, interesting to me at least. I present this list here, as a summary of what has come before, in hopes that I can now return and continue on forward with this new part of life.

First, the archives from korn.net/blog. The numbers corespond to the number of the url for the archive page (a.k.a. it’s the number of the post, but the posts are listed by date *shrug*). It may not be the most efficent method for linking to, but it’s less for me to write so that’s how I did it. (also note, the blurb with each entry is the note I took for it. None of this is really supposed to make sense to you, it’s for me. It’s always been for me.)

34 – first time I met Sheila
55 – Sunday edited on the ground of person conflicts
56 – First time explaining three personas
69 – Sudden depression
70 – lol
73 – UT2k4 writing and admittance of still broken.
74 – writing start
76/77- Ran the FUCKING Gambit
80 – End of freshman year
82 – Truck in field incident
89 – why Sheila broke up with me
100 – Sheila and I breakup
101 – want list
102 – dream
119 – what I want at night
121 – anger
134 – don’t need physical, just release
141 – ear infection
155 – people I notice
164 – sophmore year start
180 – different friends for different occasions
182 – sleep fixes anything
185 – “nunpile” WTF?
192 – Alienate EVERYBODY.
195 – figured it out, BUT FORGET!!!
200 – geeks better than cool people
204 – dance overanyalization
206 – peace
208 – rikki
214 – Hergedleion and TS
228 – sleepover at heather’s
230 – 2005
231 – no to suicide
239 – second person problem
246 – Insight comes out
253 – emo studies
255 – get trenchcoat
257 – asphault hypothesis
267 – get learners permit
270 – legal pad post
275 – 1 year of blog, so f*r*a*g’s!
276 – start of sig
285 – shower symbolism
294 – new domain name
296 – end of sophmore year
304 – link dump at NYSSSA
310 – one man hidden ninja city / Nysssa wrapup
311 – home from Nysssa
316 – Doom & Dice
317 – Start of Junior Year
(319 – Rabbit hair)
321 – Q&A theory of depression and satisfaction
324 – Uncle Jim Dies
332 – start of love/hate listings
333 – hate the mall
334 – Drama is my element
344 – lie on floor plan
347 – last post on korn.net/blog

At this point, I make my video blog. Being Youtube, I can just post it right here:

Then I start anew with oleetku.blogspot.com. (here I go by dates, but only because that’s all there is.)

3/5/06 – start blogger blog
4/8/06 – evangelion and bucket of truth
4/17/06 – many things learned
5/7/06 – rules slow you down, pile of crap theory
5/22/06 – columbine argument
(6/11/06 – actual breakup with sheila(?))
7/28/06 – Aloof one shot first mentioned
7/29/06 – notes on simpsons / music video
7/30/06 hanging (going?) out with Krystle / LCom’s freeware game review
8/9/06 – camping
9/25/06 – say I love krystle
10/13/06 – nickel for a noob
12/12/06 – have driver’s license (?)
1/15/07 – universe is ballanced
3/12/07 – death of the arcade

that’s it. If anyone wants more…you’re crazy. But feel free to go read. I, in classic fashion, and going to go to bed now. Cause I’m sick. And slept all day. But need more. Sleep. At least with this out of the way I can come back to this. Maybe. Let me sleep on it.

F*R*A*G: Everybody pisses on the floor. Be a hero and shit on the ceiling.